My Story

feeling sorry

Written by Anonymous

I am currently careing for my 80yo father,dad was diagnosed 7 years ago,he has been at a standstill for the longest time,just a bit forgetfull,on boxing day last year we lost mum without much warning,which was hard to take but naturally dad took it the worst they had been married for almost 60 yrs,for a few months dad coped with daily visits from myself and other famiy members,but as time passed dad was becomming much worse and would make up stories why I coulden't go home,he had a new complain't with his health every day.He became so depressed and stated he wanted to go to bed and not wake up,I decided to pack a few of his things and bring him home just for a couple of days til he had settled down,that was now 4mts ago,during the last few months he has gone down hill at such a fast rate,I'm not sure whether taking Aricep for so long suppressed the disese who knows,but with losing mum I think it just triggered something because each day he seems to be slipping away just that little bit more.Some days I can't wait till its time for bed,I diden't relise just how hard and demanding it is,my patience just run out sometimes I get cranky with him then later on feel sorry for him,its like a roller coaster.I will try to look after him for as long as possible but my marriage of 35yrs must come first,although my husband is very understanding and dosen't say much, after a long day at work i understand it must be hard to come home to.But at the end of the day he's my dad and feel so sorry for him and just want to care for him.