My Story

Where has my mother gone

Written by leslie

Mum was diagnosed with dementia/alzheimers 7 years ago.It is so hard because I look at her but she is a stranger. She does not know that she is married or that she has 2 daughters. We are all her good friends. I guess we are lucky that she still relates to us.
Every day we go through a difficult time when she takes off outside and heads straight for a highway saying that she has to go home.We have lived at the same place for the last 35 years.
It is so hard when she gets angry and aggressive. I call this her jeckyll/hyde time of day. We never know what is going to trigger it but we have to be on our guard for when it may happen.
She is so lovely before and after but she is not so nice while this is happening. It is at these times that I feel that I can't take anymore but then she clicks out of it and she becomes nice again and I feel guilty for ever thinking that I can't deal with the situation.
I can't remember what it is like to relax.I have forgotten how to do that.
Any one else feel this?